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Sunday, Dec. 16, 2001 2:53 p.m. Okay I have been debating something in my head for a while and i have come to the conclusion that i won't try to be punk anymore. I just can't do it. It isn't me. I can't even fake it right. I'm gonna try and go back to being the regular old boring (but real) me. And its gonna be better that way. I'm not saying I'm gonna take it totally out of my life...just not make it so important to me...ya know? I think i was only doing it for someone and that didn't even work. Serves me right. It just too bad I wasted, like, 4 years trying so hard to be this and then not even getting anything out of it. But i think if Jesse will still talk to me online that'll be alright, though. Hmmm. I mean it is like we are best friends ... and it only small corny stupid talk...you know what I'll only talk to him once in a blue moon. That way I'll won't feel so doofusish when he ignores me. I hate having to pull conversation out of people. I really do. I guess that is is for now. I feel eleveated* or something. I'm gonna go make myself an outfit or something. It's good to be back. Tee Hee. Hey Maybe people will like me better this way...Better yet...Maybe I won't even care!! Bye |
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